Motivation (or lack there of) is a huge part of the reason that I’ve always wanted to start my own blog. I’ve always wanted to help others in some way and truth be told I’m still trying to figure out how.
When it comes to something that you’re passionate about trust me, I know it’s hard to put yourself out there without discouraging thoughts filling your head. This is especially true if you’ve dealt with people who aren’t the most optimistic when it comes to branching out and doing something out of the norm. But I’m here to tell you that you can do it.
I’ll start by saying that I am a self-proclaimed weird girl. Upon 1st glance many people completely misjudge me and I’m learning to become okay with that. I remember when I was so afraid to be myself and I was stuck in this bubble of trying to be the “cool girl”. I was your “typical” (in quotations because that is a stereotype) light skin, long hair diva who didn’t hold back from anything and had words colder than ice. But that wasn’t really me.
There were so many ideas, thoughts and plans that I wanted to expand on but that I didn’t reveal to anyone because I was afraid of what others would think. I literally cared immensely about what others thought. When I did gain a little courage to speak my mind people would look down on me. At this point I lost myself in the negativity of others. I lost every bit of motivation I had to brand myself and make the step towards being my real self.
It was definitely a setback but then I had to come to the realization that the only person I am truly LIVING for is myself. I am an amazing, beautiful, intelligent young woman and sometimes looking in the mirror and seeing your worth is enough motivation to look past your dreams and decide that they will be your reality. I still struggle with this but little did I know that being the weird girl makes me the cool girl and I’m in love with my progress in self love.
There comes a time when you have to decide that you are worthy of whatever it is that you want and/or need most. It’s not about what others deem acceptable, smart, beautiful, worthy etc .. it’s about you. You are the only person that can make it happen for yourself.
And that should be enough motivation.
xoxo Cielo .