This may not be true for all of you, but I know that sometimes I would become EXTREMELY stressed because I was constantly thinking about what everyone else wanted. Everyone’s hopes, dreams, aspirations and (most importantly) expectations fell onto me. That’s a huge burden to deal with ! I started doing things (not because I wanted to but) because that’s what was expected of me. I started acting in ways that would make my family/friends/colleagues proud but I wasn’t happy. Everything that I did, I did with the pressures of others intertwined in my thoughts. Yea, I had some people rooting for me. But, let’s not forget about those who PRETEND to be rooting for you but as soon as you turn away they’re saying every negative thing you can think of. So, not only was I trying to live up to the expectations of others but I was also trying to prove all the naysayers wrong. It wasn’t healthy
With almost every conflict in my life, I have to sit down and rationalize things to myself. These same people (though I love
most them) shouldn’t have been my main focus. I was losing sleep, gaining EXTRA stress and losing my sanity. It was at this time (which is more recently than you might think) that I decided to live for myself. I do what I want because it will make me happy. YOU have the choice to get with that or step aside and move out of my way so I can better myself. Because this here is about ME. MY LIVE. ME. ME. ME. ME. ME. And it’s okay if you don’t like it. And it’s okay if you think it sucks or it’s not cool. It’s okay if you don’t understand it. And it’s okay if it doesn’t fit into your standard of acceptability. And it’s okay if it isn’t normal to you. Because it isn’t for you …
It’s for me.
And it’s okay if you’re not okay with that, because I am.
So like that picture above says you have to live for you, honor you, love you, be happy for you. Because at the end of this all, you is all that matters (in terms of happiness). You can not help anyone, love anyone entirely, live fully unless you start with fixing YOU. I know sometimes it may not seem like it – but we matter. I matter. You matter.
Never lose sight of that.
xoxo Cielo .