I found this picture and automatically related to it. As I’ve stated previously, for a long time the real me was hiding behind a superficial personality. I wanted to be cool, ‘down’ and I wanted people to like me and be able to relate to others, but I was still afraid to show the world ME (lol). So I wrapped myself up in friends that didn’t care for me, in a attitude that shielded my wounds and a life that wasn’t my own.
But then I made a conscious decision to drop the act. Why? Well, because I was unhappy. I realized that people are either going to love me or hate me and if that’s the case they’re going to have to love or hate the real me & honestly .. it wasn’t getting me anywhere. I didn’t feel like I fit in, sometimes things that I wanted to say never left my mouth because I didn’t want anyone to think I sounded stupid, I acted in ways that weren’t me and it just didn’t feel right.
As soon as I let my corky, weird and fun personality shine through … I got exactly what I didn’t know I needed – acceptance from the right people, negativity straying away from my existence, the courage to do things that my fear previously held me back from doing (and so much more lol i can go on for days), but most importantly it helped me gain my happiness and freedom- and I couldn’t feel any more blessed than I do right now.