I’ve thought about 2018, a lot.
I guess I keep going back to it because there were so many lessons that I learned during the latter part of the year.
As I’ve written about before, one major lesson I learned is that words truly mean everything. So with that I say, 2018 was the year of hardships and understandings.
What I’ve had to learn and understand is this:
I’ve had to come to an understanding that even if we believe we have everything, at any given moment it can be taken from us. Everything we have, is a blessing. Whether we believe it to be karma, cosmic energies or God. It’s life. Fair or not. It is up to us to take what we are given and live up to our divinity.
So, for me – 2018 started off rocky. It made me realize that I had become happy with a few circumstances that was not conducive to me living up to my highest potential. Instead of trying to understand how/why this could happen or doing the work to find what my potential and purpose was … I got lost in self doubt.
EVERYTHING WAS HAPPENING TO ME.
I spiraled into depression and anxiety. Made a home of it. Got quite comfy too.
My words became venom on an already toxic situation.
Until (again) the latter part of the year.
I’m not sure why, but something about Autumn … it reveals thing. Brings about change, transformation, reflection and perception.
*As all the elements shine for a reason, I’ll always be ruled by air*
I’ve found that my time of spiritual ascension happens around my solar return; my personal new year. During this time, I looked at myself and didn’t like who looked back. I saw the harm that I inflicted on my self as opposed to the “year” that I had kept blaming.
The year is just energy. Surrounding me. But it’s what I choose to do with that energy, those messages from God .. how I tapped into that, that shaped my year. That shapes my year.
It was understanding that
EVERYTHING WAS AND IS HAPPENING FOR ME.
2018 was a year of hardships that turned into understanding.
2019 is the year that my understanding turns into growth.
And I feel pretty good about that.